Searching for the unique spark~

2006-09-17T14:14:00.000+08:00

Been posted to GOMBAK/SYCoy for about a month.

Initially, life was tough, emotionally tough... it was all against my will. However, my section mates have helped me to adapt to my present environment wonderfully. Day 1 was abit awkward... but Day 2 onwards... I was feelin so part of the section already. Heard about rumors that lao jiao (experienced) like to "qie" those sin jiao (rookie). But now I can confidently... state that those rumors are unfounded and are just basically rumors. Well at least my section did not gave me that kind of feelin.

As for now, I'm on a shift schedule. Mount, dismount, training, standby! A four days rotational shift... all the way until I ORD. I'm surely gonna miss alot of events, public hoildays and even gatherings. Haiz... but "Bo Bian". There's nothing I can do!

One thing, I hated very much was the comparison between RPs and MPs. Why the comparisons? Each of us have our own tasks and chores. Just do what we are supposed to do and that's it.

Another 92 mounts to go!

2006-08-18T21:57:00.000+08:00

2006-08-18T21:15:00.000+08:00

Our performance

The pics above were found on the net... Credits to those who have taken them.

2006-08-18T21:05:00.000+08:00

NDP 2006 SPDS Row Charlie~ Da best row!

Before performance

After performance

2006-08-17T22:33:00.000+08:00

Moments before performance...

Gettin ready...

Me and Sammuel (My best bud in SAFPU)

Me and "Giam Sir" a.k.a Jun Kiat

The mood before performance... Very relax lol

2006-08-09T00:00:00.000+08:00

Happy 41st National Day to one and all!

It had been sometime since I last blogged. Been kinda lazy and tired. Partially due to the commitment to NDP 2006. Hardly had any spare time left.

My batch had been chosen to perform for the very last time in the National Stadium for this year NDP SPDS performance.

Training started back 3 months or 4 months back. Initially, the training days were only scheduled on Thursday and Saturday. Then, eventually it became Tuesday, Wenesday, Thursday and Saturday. For weekdays, it was from 3pm to 11pm and for Saturday, a combined rehearsal from 3pm till 9 pm. However, for Saturday most of the time was spent waiting for our cue run.

This performance was of highly significance to us. After the performance, my batch would be slpitted up. Some will be posted to Gombak (including me), some to Zone, some to Istana Platoon, and the rest will stay in the Cermeonial Platoon. This was the last time that we will be performing together as a batch. And we do not want to leave APC with regrets!

2006-06-30T01:47:00.000+08:00

I just wanna wish my buddies HAPPY 21 guyz! You have successfully joined the bandwagon of twenty-ones!
Chao 17th, Han 24th, Mao 26th.

2006-06-30T01:23:00.000+08:00

It's been damn long since I last blogged. Been damn busy with the National Day Parade 2006 and Singapore Armed Forces Day Parade 2006 rehearsals.

It so damn fuckin shag~! And in-between them, Guard of Honour mounting at both MINDEF and Istana. Sometimes, I really wonder if it's a good thing to pass my OD(Orientation Drill). Those people who never pass their OD gets to SIB(sleep in bunk) while those of us who pass have to book in the previous night and fall in early in the morning. Where is the fairness? As one of my platoon mate always say, "No choice, we are only man~" Always said in a very matter of fact style...

This month of June was the most hectic period in the whole year of APC. Rehearsals, rehearsals and more rehearsals. It's like we are in camp 7 days a week!!!

1st of July... this comin Saturday is the SAF Day Parade 2006. Hope that we will not screw up man. Any minor faults is deep shit for us. Why? Coz we are "Provost". Supposedly, to be the best in drills and ceremonies. We'll see on this Saturday~

But the most shocking news of the month... I'm posted to MINDEF. WTF?!?! I passed my OD, learnt my SPDS all for nothing. Nothing! I felt as if my service is not needed in APC anymore. I guess the reason on why they actually kicked me out of APC... was my rotation... I tried so hard to improve on it... but juz couldn't make the grade. Well, who can I blame? Me... and only me myself. Haiz~ No more prestidge... no more No.1... no more pride~

2006-04-29T18:57:00.000+08:00

2006-04-25T18:50:00.000+08:00

LCP!!! Another $20!!!

2006-04-23T17:14:00.000+08:00

Once again, we are approaching the end of a glorious EPL season. The title is most probably ending up at Stamford Bridge again despite Manchested United relentless pursuit. The gap between the two teams is a huge 9 points. United hopes of a miracle comeback ended when they could only accomplish a draw against Sunderland at Old Trafford. Chelsea only needed a point from their last three matches to clinch the title.

Looking at Chelsea next three fixtures - home match against Man Utd and two away match against Blackburn and Newcastle.

The match against Man Utd had DRAW written all over it. While Blackburn and Newcastle both have an outside chance of qualifying for the UEFA Cup, but that is only if Arsenal slipped up further which is highly impossible.

Having said all this, United will gunning for the second spot for an automatic qualification into the Champions League. Lookin at United next three fixtures, an away match to Stamford Bridge and two home games against Boro and the Addicks. Both Boro and Charlton will have almost nothing to play for while United will have Liverpool hot on their trails. United will have to secure 6 points or rather maximum points in their next three matches.

The third spot will either go to United or Pool, depending on who finishes second. Surprisingly, contest for the fourth spot will go down the wire between Spurs and The Gunners. A 1-1 draw in their last encounter at Highbury simply means, Spurs have the upper hand against their London adversary. A very significant one point advantage!

The teams fixtures
Arsenal: Sunderland (Away), Man City (Away) and Wigan (Home)
Tottenham: Bolton (Home) and West Ham (Away)

Arsenal most probable stumble stone will be at Man City. Even though City will have nothing to play for, they will not want to lose to the Gunners on their home ground. However Arsenal will have to get maximum points and hope that Spurs will slip up. Spurs on the other hand, will face a fiery fiesta when they host Bolton. They will have to win both their games to secure a spot in the Champions League. There is bound to be an exciting fight to the end for this last ticket to Europe most coverted tournament.

The relegation battle will be between Birmingham and Portsmouth.

The team fixtures
Portsmouth (35 pts): Wigan (Away) and Liverpool (Home)
Birmingham (33 pts): Newcastle (Home) and Bolton (Away)

Lookin at their fixtures, anything could happen in this closing stage of the season. Anything less than a WIN for Birmingham against Newcastle will see them playing the Championship next season. It's a must WIN for Birmingham to have any hopes of survival.

My predictions:-
Top 5: 1st Chelsea, 2nd Manchester United, 3rd Liverpool 4th Arsenal, 5th Tottenham
Bottom 3: 20th Sunderland (Confirmed), 19th West Brom, 18th Birmingham

2006-04-22T21:45:00.000+08:00

Your true color is Brown!

You're brown, a credible, stable color that's reminiscent of fine wood, rich leather, and wistful melancholy. Most likely, you're a logical, practical person ruled more by your head than your heart. With your inquisitive mind and insatiable curiosity, you're probably a great problem solver. And you always gather all of the facts before coming to a timely, informed decision. Easily intrigued, you're constantly finding new ways to challenge your mind, whether it's by reading the newspaper, playing a trivia game, or composing a piece of music. Brown is an impartial, neutral color, which means you tend to see the difference between fact and opinion easily and are open to many points of view. Trustworthy and steady, you really are a brown at heart.

What's Your True Color?

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2006-04-21T22:24:00.000+08:00

Had another OD test on Wed (190406)... and this time I PASSED!!! I was so shocked when my name was announced... STAY OUT!!! All my privilledges are back!!! And I can 8-5!!!

2006-04-15T01:04:00.000+08:00

Had an OD evaluation test on Wednesday... only 11 passed... and I failed! Haiz~

OD Regulations:-
Refuse entry into mess room
Refuse entry to canteen
Refuse access to vending machines
Refuse access to food deliveries
Refuse privilledge of nights out

Aaaarrrrhhhh!!! All these regulations are makin me mad... worse than a recruit in BMT! That's WHY I must pass my next OD test! Failure is not an option!

SPDS, OD, SPDS, OD! Day in, day out! Now that's what I call a total body workout. OD trains the legs while SPDS trains the hand.

I WANT TO PASS MY OD!!!

2006-04-09T16:04:00.000+08:00

V For Vendetta (4.5/5)

The story is about a masked man named V who goes about urging people to fight against the Government oppression thru his own means and vindictive ways.

"People should not be afraid of their Government! Government should be afraid of the People!"

"Artists use lies to show the truth, while politicians use lies to cover it."

Really a must watch!

Inside Man (4/5)

A perfectly planned bank robbery that leaves no clue, no loot and definitely doesn't seemed to have taken place. Twists and turns made up the whole story. And for once... the bad guys won!

"Being imprisoned rather than being in prison"

One really F up things about the movie, their conversation are all censored no F word no B word and no A word! WTF! Spoilers!

2006-04-08T01:22:00.000+08:00

And APC it was...

Posted to Active Provost Company... and we are the so called "chosen" ones! Don't know if it's "heng" or "suay". But anyway to me, there is nothing called choice in the SAF...

Orientation Drill and SPDS from now till ORD? Maybe... perhaps...? Initially was kinda "sian" feelin but after 2 weeks... it seems that I have adapted quite well to my new company. Everyday practice on our drill and nothing but drill... Just endured thru the 30 mins standing parade today... next is gonna be the one hour standing parade!

I'm beginning to respect the Sgts, their teaching method really earned my respect. Since I'm already in APC, I should make the most of it and polish up my individual drill!

I have reached my 21 milestone on 040406. Doin guard duty~ HAHA! What a way to celebrate my birthday! 4D also nvr so zun lor! Unique~ simply unique~ where else can you celebrate ur birthday like this, only in the SAF lol. Planned to treat my bunk mates but too bad OD period cancelled out all our privilledges... including calling delivery! Spent every single night in the bunk ironing my No.3. Maybe nxt time can consider opening an ironing shop catering to all SAF uniforms~ confirm will reap profits lol!

Here wishing Happy Birthday to all my BMT bunkmates... (mostly born in April)

2006-03-24T18:51:00.000+08:00

Basic SPDS 01/06 Course Passing Out Parade

One week of very intense training and rehearsal to put up a pleasant performance.

Monday and Tuesday
Learning of all the drills and formations
Wednesday and Thursday
Rehearsal, rehearsal and more rehearsal
Friday
Actual performance!

The warm-up actually decreased to 2 counts lol. And we tend to focus more on our rotations. 11 rotations... 4 pause READY GO! The advance SPDS took over the reins of the APC instructors and imparted some new drills and introduced our formations to us.

Practiced on the transition between each formations. After that, it's just rehearsing over and over again until everything is drilled into our head.

Training under the scorching sun with parched lips and aching limbs... BUT the end product is simply SWEET! We performed infront of the Provost family and passed out as SPDS trained MPs!

The SPDS badge - hard-earned and definitely needs sweat, blood(from blisters) and most importantly sheer endurance.

Up next... APC (maybe?)

2006-03-18T12:07:00.000+08:00

This is the end of the third week and our warm up have increased to 15 counts of 10!!! And running with a rifle is seriously no joke! But it seems that without the warm up, I could not handle the rifle with ease.

My rotation have fnally improved, all thanks to the SPDS instructors. But still much more improvement is needed before I could perform infront of an audience.

Nxt week, gonna be rush and definitely tough but maybe fun! We're gonna rehearse our POP in 4 days. We're gonna accomplish smething that was usually done in a few months. Bring it on!

2006-03-11T21:08:00.000+08:00

2 weeks of shiong and intense training have passed. And miraculously, I passed the second evaluation test. Damn "HENG"! Seems that I have sprained my right thumb and wrist. Fuckin pain. Maybe having these injuries are part and parcel of SPDS.

As they said, if 5 months of hardwork can be paid off in 5 mins... it's all worth it. No longer have the "I want to OOC feelin" now is I want to prove that I overcome the mental and physical torment and strive all the way!!!

4 pause... READY GO!!!

2006-03-05T19:07:00.000+08:00

Hmm... maybe I'm wrong SPDS is not "shiong", it's FUCKIN "shiong" The warm up itself is a sure killer. Seriously, it really utilizes ur whole upper body strength. Esp ur arm power, training under the scorching sun, enduring the pain and mentally remembering all the steps of the drill. Alertness, precision, discipline and teamwork simply summarises what SPDS is all about.

2006-02-24T15:47:00.000+08:00

Finally completed my 9 weeks MP Basic course. And now I'm a full pledged military policeman in the Singapore Armed Forces! Received my black brassard and dark blue beret on 220206 to signify the start of my MP life!

Next up, a one month SPDS course... the "shiongest" course yet!

2006-01-28T17:22:00.000+08:00

Happy Lunar New Year!!! 新年快乐 to all! Time to usher in the year of the Dog, hope this year will be a smooth and peaceful year.

Around 4 wks left of my MP Basic Course... time to hit the high point of the course. Outfield! Outfield! and more outfield! Test! Test! and more test!

Had a rather tiring wk, mentally exhausted... due to all the lectures and test. And next wk is gonna be my Military Law test... Sianz, gonna spend my CNY studying LAW~

Now for some good news. I have finally passed my IPPT...FINALLY...Now I can aim for higher standards! Our section seems to have gotten closer too. Bunk1 and bunk2 could at last achieve as a section. With a section like this, outfield shouldn't be a problem.

Let the new year be a properous year for all!!!

2006-01-09T23:05:00.000+08:00

Recent events

Technical Handling Test for GPMG
Stripping and assembling of GPMG, I found this damn interesting and very challenging; especially to beat the given time limit.

Topography
Nothing exceptional. Juz rain, rain rain and more rain! It was so irritating that I had to wear my Gortex jacket, take it off and wear it again! Spotted a double rainbow, a wider, bigger rainbow forming above a rainbow. Quite a magnificent view.

Live firing of GPMG
Damn shiok! However the most tedious part was to clean the GPMGs, damn tough man! And miraculously the sky showed mercy and rained only after we went back to camp. Damn heng man!

2006-01-02T14:47:00.000+08:00

Happy 2006 to all! The world ushered in the new year in a bang. Partying all night long, as compared to last year moment of silence.

Events that happened on the last day of the year:
Went to Beach Rd (Army Market) with Mao and Chao
Settled our lunch, got my stuff and headed back to Yishun
Bought my EPSON All-In-One and went hm to fix
3 idiots took a bus that had changed its route a month ago, ending up taking a full circle lol
Reached hm drenched, installed my printer, charged my digicam and went out again
Met up with Mao, Han, Kevin, Fang, Karen, Ying and Ru at Marina Square
Went in search for a place to settle our dinner, everywhere was crowded with people
In the end, had Carl's Jr. Taste normal but definitely better than BKs'
Ljs, Boon and Koon joined us.
After dinner, went over to the Esplanade area. Thronged with people, jostling, pushing and shoving.
Walked along the waterfront, all the way to the bridge. Looking for a good spot to view the fireworks.
The police were really doing a "great" crowd control job. Sealing off and barricading most entrance to the bridge and waterfront.
It's 0000 hrs. The fireworks were ignited, illuminating the night skies with explosive red, blue, gold etc. Simply spectacular!
After that, went to Killiney for supper. Had waffle with vanilla ice cream covered with thick choc syrup. Quite appetizing.
After supper, took NR2 to Admiralty. Went to chat at Mac. In the end, me, Han and Mao end up nearly dozing off lol.
It's 0600, MRT has started its operation. Took a train back to Yishun and HOME.

My first movie of the new year - Chronicles of Narnia
Not bad not bad, 8/10. It's a fairytale, a modern fairytale! The storyline is like LOTR. There's a prophecy; when two sons of Adam and two daughters of Eve arrive in Narnia. Narnia will be set free from the clutches of the Ice witch. The storyline is smooth flowing, really smooth. It's a very good natured film, afterall it's a movie for the young.

My new year wishes:
World peace(I'm serious!)
My family to be safe, sound and healthy
People around me to be happy, cheerful, and of coz stay healthy!
As for me, to be a better person (Be punctual! I guess that's what my frenz want most)
Get a silver for my IPPT! (3 more chin-up to go) Shouldn't be that difficult right~
Guyz, remember what we said, next year countdown. Don't come alone! (Hope only lol)
All the best to everyone in whatever venture, whatever things you do, or plan to do.

"The best thing on Earth is to accomplish something that everyone say you can't."

Anonymous

2005-12-31T02:10:00.000+08:00

So fast~ it has been 2 weeks into my MP Basic course. Totally adjusted to the life over there. Looking forward to whatever training is in store! The course has been rather interesting and very enjoyable so far.

However, staying in camp has literally made me lost touch with the CV life. I know nuts about the latest movies, songs and surprisingly latest happenings in Singapore! So I could only make use of my weekends to catch up on everything~ which is rather impossible lol.

It's the last day of the year. The end of 2005 is approaching nearer and nearer as I type. 2005~ Well, not a bad year for me I think. Graduated from Poly, temp staff in Accenture, enlisted into NS, POP, got into MP. Happening! Really happening! So many memories, so much fun and laughter! Simply unforgettable!

2005-12-26T16:01:00.000+08:00

Merry X'mas and a Happy Boxing Day to all!

Booked out on Friday nite... Met up with Han, Mao, Chao, Fang and Ying for a midnite movie. Watched the 8th Wonder of The World, "King Kong". Another great movie by Peter Jackson. As compared to the previous remakes of King Kong, the current ape has more expression and character. Instead of just being a beast, the director draws the audience to feel for the giant ape. A 8/10 for me!

Other movies watched recently:-
The Descent (7.5/10)
Saw II (7/10)

Next day, Christmas Eve. Was supposed to help Fang with her proj, but failed to do so... Long time nvr touch programming liao so very sorry ar. At nite, met up with Mao, Han, Ying, Sheng for dinner. Fish and Co treat by Mao! Thx man! After dinner, we met up with Chao and went to walk ard Orchard Rd. Until, we walked past a makeshift store selling Party Sprays. Take cover!!! "Snow" started to intrude the area! Wonder who started it? All of us tio but Mao literally turns into a snowman LMAO!!!

After cleaning up at a nearby toilet, we decided to leave town for a more peaceful environment, HOME!

Took cabs to Yishun 10... Mao wanted to experience being drunk for the first time! And boy did he "experienced" it first hand! Went ard to search for ABSOLUTE, but to no avail. In the end, just had to make do with GORDON. Went to my hse, opened the bottle, down goes the liquor and Wala!!! A drunk Mao!!!

Keep wanting to drink more! 我要喝!
I'm not drunk! 我没醉！
Cannot stand properly. Stumbling in his steps.
Behaving like a spoiled brat! Asked to rest, he stands. Asked to stand, he falls.
Anyhow acknowledge people as mother lol. 我是你妈！哦哦！
Uttering his most truthful speech! *Salutes
Frequent visits to the toilet. Lost count man.
Back to normal in 2 hrs!

In the morning, left only me, Mao, Chao, Han and Fang. Went for breakfast at 925 and went hm. Ya btw we witnessed a scene from "My Sassy Girl 3" Singapore Edition! LOL! =x

And that's how I celebrated my X'mas. Gonna book-in in 4 hours time. Sianz~ Cannot watch EPL!

2005-12-22T15:32:00.000+08:00

3 days in SAFPU... physical training relatively tough... mental training relatively crazy. Strict! Damn strict! "Confidential" sums up the whole thing, everything is top secret!

A future Military Police to be in the making~

Pride! Discipline! Honour! Provost!

2005-12-16T13:20:00.000+08:00

Got my BMTC posting le... MP (Military Police). Hmm wonder what's it like~

2005-12-13T14:49:00.000+08:00

It had been some time since I last blogged.

NS life
3 months have passed in the blink of an eye. Finally POPed (Passing Out Parade) on the 7th of December 2005. What have I achieved during this period? Nothing? Well, that's what I think. The best thing out of this 3 months, I have gotten to know many friends, esp my Section mates. You can never find a better section. We have virtually reached our goal of being the best section in the platoon! (My point of view that is)

Hawk Platoon 3 (100905 - 071205)

Hawk Platoon 3 Section 1 (100905 - 071205)
Proud members of this section:
H3101 - Shi Hao
The steadfast and fearless IC of our section. Get the job done 99% of the time. Foes of the creepy crawlies! Killer of uncountable bees!
H3102 - Bjorn
A sibei ON guy, personifies the meaning of brotherhood and boy is he FIT! Long term goal ORD, short term POP! lol
H3103 - Jeff
Another great buddy, damn helpful guy. A 99% Mr Nice Guy and a really good singer
H3104 - Sky
A great eater lol... Likes to sing aloud on his bed =x
H3105 - Sherwin
My buddy! A very determined fella. Witty & damn creative! His fighting spirit is something hard to come by and his perserverance is simply sheer tenacity. My salute to you, buddy!
H3106 - Wenxiong
Very low profile so fill them in urself man!
H3107 - Rais
A muslim who doesn't know Malay but is damn good in Chinese and Hokkien. His fiery temper is something to note of. Always willing to help~ Winner of the shiniest boots competition lol
H3108 - Ken
My second best mate in the section, my buddy's the first. His "diam" antics is the best man lol. The most memorable thing about him is "Aryah! Who gonna take the cab with me?" scenario LMAO
H3109 - Stephen (Pronounced as Stiffen)
The first person in the section to pass his IPPT! A very learned and cultured guy. A rather soft spoken guy at the beginning.
H3110 - Melvin
Another soft spoken guy, even until now lol. He is rather business oriented, into stock market~ Sad that he couldn't POP with us. Get well soon, Mel.
H3111- Jian Ping
The "Kai Xin Guo" of the section. When the chips r down, he's always there to bring up the mood with his jokes and rather corny actions lol.

SOC, IPPT, Field Camp, SIT test, Route March
Sibei sianz ar!!! In the end, still couldn't pass my SOC. Stuck at the balancing log~ No idea man, once I step onto the plank, my leg juz trembled like fuck... auto de. Guess I just couldn't overcome my fear of heights. I know it's only me holding myself back but I just have no courage to step forward.

During my first 700m run down, I was stucked at the balancing log for damn long, so long that the whole bunch of Sgts and officers gathered that obstacle. Even the medic joined in.

Actually, for every station you could only have 3 tries, after 3 tries you will fail that station and continue with the others. For me, after 3 tries, the Sgts still wouldn't let me pass, quoting I have to overcome my fear now~

One of them said, "If I can run up the plank, you must be able to walk up!" True enough, he did ran up the plank in 3 steps! But my hind leg just couldn't make that all important second step. Another Sgt even walked up the plank backwards! They made it seem so easy. But somehow I was like all frozed up, not able to make a move.

Finally, after sometime, I mustered enough courage to advance up the plank. Half way up the plank, they decided to use the mentality approach, they wanted to make me give up. Well, that did spur me on a little... I have 2 choice to continue or just give up. I decided to go all the way. I did want to QUIT!

After a few attempts, I am finally able to cross the damn obstacle with so much help from all the Sgts, officers, FS and even my OC. I will always remember this phrase, "We are COMMANDERS, not teachers!" It holds a deeper meaning that what is being shown. One day, I will really understand~ to get things done using any methods available!

As for IPPT, I got a PASS! But still need to work more on my chin up...

During the 7 days field camp, we had alot of fun and memorable experiences.. esp with our sect com. Training is tough but very enjoyable esp when you get to do it with ur section mates. Proning on Ant's nest, getting cuts and brusies all over, section movement, taking cover, arti drill, sniper drill. Damn shiong but thinking back, it's actually quite fun lol. The last 2 day of field camp is hell to me, the only point of heaven is the encouragement from my section and lots of help from my buddy. I endured the fever until the end of Field Camp, went home and the fever hit 40 degrees celcius lol. Surprised that I'm still able to go out.

During the SIT test, I'm still suffering from the aftermath of the fever and failed to perform. There's goes the chance of becoming a commander.

24Km route march!!! Had a great time man... my last route march with my buddy~Entertainment to the max!

"Don't test the might of Hawk's dynamite!!!" Nice? My buddy created it.

POP loh!!!

Time to take it ez~

Section minor

Waiting to go HOME

2005-11-03T00:25:00.000+08:00

On a 4 days break... from Monday to Thursday. A small break before my 7 days field camp... Gonna burn my weekends again~ Lookin forward to these 7 days, anxious to find out what is in store for me! This 7 days can either break or change me... well that's what most of my friends said.

During this 7 days, I will see the real side of everyone... when the mask goes off... the true human nature shows. Who is really helpful in time of needs? Who is able to face adversity in calmness? Who are the real cowards? It's gonna be very interesting to find out lol. Of coz, I will want to take this opportunity to find the real me... What is my true character? How do I react in troubled times?

My platoon mates and Sgts are saying that I'm too "Gan Cheong" in doing things. I lack the calmness when needed. Is it a lack of confidence? Guess I will try to be more relac... and loosen up~

I need to pass my SOC... the balancing beam and Jacob's Ladder... I must overcome them! And I know I'm able if I really TRY!!!

Okie... summary of my outings

Sunday night - too tired to go out

Monday - Met up with Mao, Tian, Xiang, Fang and Ying for movie "Tom Yum Goong", 5/10 (too much fighting scenes + the fighting scenes are too long and damn draggy... a fragile storyline that appeared to disintegrate anytime)

Tuesday - Met up with Mao, Tian and Xiang, went to Army Market to get my field camp stuff. Saw Bjorn, Jeff, JP and Rais there. After that, went to play pool at Concourse... Had dinner at BK and headed for Geylang for supper. "Yong He Dou Jiang You Tiao" not bad la... but the best thing there was the "Mee Sua" Damn Sedap!!! 9/10 After meal, went for a walk ard the area... went thru the backlane somemore... many fishy business goin on... many blanga literally thronged that area man... so that's how they celebrate Deepavali... being far from home

Wednesday - Met up with Mark, Roger, Bryan and Kw for movie "Transporter 2", 7/10 (Nice acting... nice stunts although some are simply overly exaggerated... Overall. not bad) After movie, went to settle our early dinner at Cafe Cartel... our chatting topic revolved around NS experience from BMT to SISPEC to Police Inspector lol. After dinner, we went our seperate ways... Mark and I went to Marina Square, gt back my digicam. Had our second dinner at LJS and shopped at GIANT. Made our way back after getting our things.

Thursday - Most probably not goin out, will be packing my stuff and back to Tekong at nite

2005-10-30T19:35:00.000+08:00

I'm damn freakin tired and burned out...

Today is pure hell... from 0530 (time when we woke up) till now... we hardly have a 30 minutes rest. The training schedule is really crazy...

SOC at 0730... Introduction to the last 4 obstacles (Low rope, Suicide window, Jacob's Ladder, High Ramp) I was stucked on the fucking Jacob's Ladder for damn long... my fear of height literally got the better of me. Sianz~ I don't think I can pass the SOC afterall... unless I overcome my fear of height in less than a month!

After SOC, straight away was the hand grenade test... simple but very tiring... esp the waiting time. After that, lunch only 2 minutes for us to change to vest slack from long 4 (this incudes kiwing the boots) Simply no time to rest.

After lunch, no time for digestion! Fall in for arms drill... under the fuckin damn hot sun!!! Many of my platoon mates kena heat stroke. Many suffered from dehydration... it's like almost half the company gone~ After arms drill... had to change immediately to long 4 for Strength Training... by that time, we have gone from shagged to numb... totally burned out that our senses almost numb. After training still had to do area cleaning before booking out~ What a day man!

Last week, I was holding 3 appointments... platoon IC, section IC, toilet IC! Stress? lol (Longest serving platoon IC in my company - 8 days!) Really had so much things to do... but dun really feel the stress sinking in... maybe I'm trained mentally lol

IPPT - Great improvement! (1 more chin up to PASS!!!)

Field Camp soon~ lookin forward to it!

2005-10-16T00:21:00.000+08:00

Into the 2nd week of BMT.

Chin up: 3 at least, if heng heng can get 4 lol (2 more to pass)
2.4: 11mins 30 secs
SBJ: 221 (Improvement frm 212)
Hope I can pass IPPT by the next test!

BMT schedule is so much damn packed than PTP. One activities after another.

My only regret this week was that I couldn't take the latest IPPT test... due to some injuries.
Injured area includes:-
Deep cuts on the face just 1cm of my left eye stretching all the way to my side burns.
Mild abrasion on my left wrist, left shoulder and right knee.

Sibei sian!!! All this happened on an accident during Speed Training one day before IPPT.
After the first round of jogging, we were supposed to sprint for 30 secs and slow jog for 60 secs at intervals. During the first interval, everyone was jostling to go infront... but at the start of the sprint, one guy happened to trip my leg and made me flew forward, landing on the red track face first. SIANZ~ First round only KOed!

At that instant, I didn't felt the pain and decided to carry on running after that guy pulled me up. The Sgt immediately pulled me to the side and asked me to fall out. Went to the toilet and wash up, only then did I felt the sharp pain and how badly my face was bleeding. Went to see the medic, patched me up and kept reminding me that the wound on my face must not get infection or else the consequences will be dire. Sibei jialat 98% 破相 liao!!! T_T. Hope that I can recover faster and the wounds will heal up with minimum scar~ *PRAYING DAMN HARD!!!*

Sibei SUAY aRrrrrrrrr!!! Though it was an accident, I still cannot accept the fact that the victim was me~ WHY me?!?!

2005-10-02T02:28:00.000+08:00

Finally, bro is discharged from Tan Tock Seng hospital. But he's still in an unstable stage. One main thing is he cannot bleed. Having said that he cannot fall, cut his hair, shave or even cut his fingernails. He was asked to stay at home and recuperate for another 2 more weeks. That's how fuckin powerful a dengue virus can be.

Third week of PTP
2.4 timing improve! 11:43 (Hope to hit 10:43 by next wk)
I'm beginning to love the physical training, the aftermath really makes me damn HIGH! lol
Pull up still between zero and 1 (Hope can maintain on 1-2 by nxt wk)
The fuckin thing I hated most is the fuckin Tekong cough syndrome!!!

Bro is sick

2005-09-25T01:51:00.000+08:00

Sianz... my bro is down with high fever... he juz came back from TTSH... luckily it's not dengue fever. He needs to go for another blood test on Monday, hope the result stays positive.

Initially agreed to join the gang for movie, but due to this unforseen circumstances I decided against it. Can say that I'm worried for my brother. Wish him speedy recovery as I will be back in Tekong by Sunday night.

First Book Out

2005-09-24T13:53:00.000+08:00

2 weeks have past in a blink of an eye. Yesterday was my first book out.

I'm beginning to enjoy the regimental style of NS life. The trainings are tough but the aftermath of it was damn SHIOK!!!

Introduced to CPT1 (Combat Physical Training 1) - warm up excercise before any lesson proper

My first experience was really tiring, but as the days go by... it's no kick now lol

Then comes CPT2... a little bit shiong

The shiong part is Strength Training... dumb bell drill, medicine ball etc... but the after the excercise I feel damn song!

Food in NS is between average to sometimes good.. nothing below average.

The welfare is good and the atmosphere is fantastic for training.

As for foot drill, my keblakang puseng simply sux... Haiz. (Muz try to buck up on it)

Fitness-wise, chin up still zero fighter, 2.4 still fail... and fuck I failed SBJ by 4cm lol

Failed my swimming categorisation also... (not bad, can swim daily lol)

As for my platoon mates... I saw many different kind of characters in them. As for my section mates, they are the best... we aim to be the best section in the platoon!

There is a buddy system in the unit. The bed next to you will be ur buddy. I have a very creative buddy, the creative director in my section lol. But alas, there's some problem on his left wrist and he is unable to train with us most of the time. Can see that he is very depress but there's nothing I can do. HAIZ~ sianz

But well, I'm lookin forward to the challenges ahead... what ever they have... Juz bring them on!!!

Last Words Before NS

2005-09-10T00:00:00.000+08:00

All right... today's the date! Enlisting in 15 hrs 44 mins!!!

Gonna be MIA for 2 weeks~ Good luck to all those takin their exams and projects, happy working for those working... and happy slacking for those PRIVATEs, enjoy ur CV life guys lol.

Be back in 2 weeks. Adios and ciaoz!!!

It's time

2005-09-09T00:37:00.000+08:00

Finally~ it's time! 2 more days and Tekong it is!

Many people, including myself did had many doubts about NS. These doubts in turn instilled some fear in us, pre-enlistees. This fear also drived most of us to pump up our body before enlistment. Push-ups, sit-ups, jogging, gym visits... you name it! That's the power of FEAR!!! With that said, who doesn't fear NS?!?! Nobody and I mean absolutely NOBODY!!! You tend to fear one thing or the other.

And as for people like me, weaklings~ who have to go through the Physical Training Phase, in short PTP. This phase aims to make people like me physically fit for Basic Military Training (BMT). So it's gonna be training after training... pumpings after pumpings... It's important to put my whole 101% into it or it might be detrimental or rather not so effective to my training. I'm goin to go all out!!! I'm sick and tired of being a weakling... it's a bane to my life!

Heard some stories about new recruits being shouted at till their mind went blank and stood there like a dummy. Hmmm... that's something you don't see everyday~ What's the feeling of being shouted straight at your face with saliva raining down on you like nobody business? I had to experience that first hand. People learn through experiences. Maybe I like learning things the hard way. Bring it on!

It's all about learning new things and getting back my discipline. I'm seriously in need of being disciplined. I think I'm getting out of hands man! This will be a great opportunity to bring me back to the right track. I want to find the real me~ people says the true character only appears when you are facing adversity. Can NS be counted an adversity? Maybe? I don't know~ Simply put it, I want NS to nurture me, and I'm confident that it has this ability.

In 3 months time, will I be who I am now or will people see a more self reliant me brimming with self confidence. Well, it remains to be seen~

2005-09-07T02:11:00.000+08:00

Accompanied Mark to CMPB...
Took a cab down (coz I was late~)
Finally got my NS medical report...
Had ice kachang at Bukit Merah hawker centre...
Took 851 back to Yishun...
Went to Cold Storage and got our NS stuffs...
Settled dinner at Northpoint Food Court...
Went to POPULAR to get some stationaries for NS...
Home it is...
Watched the 超级女声 videos...

They are really damn talented with STARS written all over their performance. Believe it or not... most of them are multi-lingual... well versed in Mandarin (this is of coz), English, Spanish, French, Japanese (for some) Damn... they are really that DAMN good lol.

Seriously after watching their performance, you will run out of superlatives man! 她们真的是她妈的有个性啊!!!

This is their theme song... very meaningful

推开夜的天窗
对流星说愿望
给我一双翅膀
能够接近太阳
我学着一个人成长
爱给我能量
梦想是神奇的营养
催促我开放
想唱就唱要唱的响亮
就算没人有为我鼓掌
至少我还能够勇敢的自我欣赏
想唱就唱要唱的漂亮
就算这舞台多空旷
总有一天能看到挥舞的荧光棒

(My own translation... )
If you want to sing, juz do it! Let ur voice be heard~
Even if no one applauses you, be brave and appreciate ur own talent
If you want to sing, sing it with grace
The stage might be empty now
But one day... you will see fans with light sticks filling up the space

He Jie

2005-09-06T02:41:00.000+08:00

超级女声,the hottest competition in China has ended. A particular singer really stood out... she's not the champion, she's not even in the finals... but her stage presence is simply magnificent.

She's a real great talent!!! She's 何洁. Able to excel in both English and Chinese songs. What's more... she exudes a larger than life attitude... she has got the X-FACTOR!!!

Too bad, she lost~

Seoul Garden Binge? lol

2005-09-06T01:51:00.000+08:00

Met up with Mark for Seoul Garden Causeway Point
He calls this the last food binge before NS lol. (Binge for him not for me)
First time I'm eating this less lol...
First time my hands kena splashed by the oil like siao~ (My side of the table covered with oil)
Great lunch with a great buddy... It's his treat lol

After lunch, caught "The Longest Yard" at Cathay Causeway Point. Great movie!!! (His treat too lol Thx man!)
Juz look at some of the cast lol...
Steve Austin
Kevin Nash
Bill Goldberg
Nelly
Adam Sandler
Chris Rock

With a cast like this... this movie was never in any danger of hitting a 6 and below. I rate this movie 9/10... Pure entertainment all the way... The flow was simply perfect... And what can I say about the soundtrack... it's simply Nellycious!!!

I rate this the best movie of 2005 until now!!!

Bring it on man!!! It's the Cons VS the Guards in a no-holds barred Football slugfest!!!

Visit The Longest Yard NOW!!!

After the show, went to Chong Pang to collect Mark's NS spec and got some of our NS stuffs
Went hm after that...

Nyy's treat

2005-09-05T00:40:00.000+08:00

Saturday Events

Had a sushi buffet at Suki Suhi Orchard Cineleisure with Han, Mao, Chao, Nyy and Wenhan.
Raked up a bill of $120 (I think~), Nyy treat (reason: first pay ma~) Thx!

After lunch, planned to go KTV but everywhere was fully booked. In the end, jalan jalan at PS for awhile and slacked at Paradiz Centre Food Court.

Wenhan left to meet her frenz and Mao went to his class BBQ/Chalet. Left me, Han, Chao and Nyy. Went to Marina Square to meet up with Karen. Had dinner at Cavanna Marina Square. Felt cheated, my chicken rice was replaced with white rice lol.

After dinner, went bowling. Damn, as usual I sucked lol. Still can't quite figure out the spinning momentum of the ball. The ball tend to spin away from the target at the last minute! At one point, I did grasp the spin of the ball and ended up with a double. But mostly, the ball would end up in the drain LOLZ. One day, I must grasp the concept fully!!!

After bowling, Han and Karen went home while me, Chao and Nyy met up with Mao and Wenhan for midnite movie. "Once More Chance" or better known as 三个好人.

Nice show but the ending was kinda one twist too many. The actors in the film being local popular comedians were unable to inject much seriousness into some scene. For example, there was a scene depicting one of the prisoners being caned. Can you believe it??? The cinema was filled with laughters. (Ok, I have to bare in mind that people see things with different perspectives)

But seriously, some parts of the film are really touching scenes. One particular scene was this, Mark Lee actually done up a scrapebook with a summarised life story of her daughter. That book contained all his thoughts and wishes for her daughter since her birth. And that was her birthday present. Man, that was real touching~ An inexpensive gift made whole-heartedly for an intended person. (Now, that's really something money can't buy!!!)

Enlisting soon... Either go F or H Company... POP on 7th Dec. Metally prepared but physically... Nah~ Still haven't buy the neccessities... LOLZ

Root of connection problem

2005-09-02T00:32:00.000+08:00

Finally found the root of my connection problem. KNN CCB!!! Everytime my wireless adapter detects a new connection around my vicinity, I will be disconnected!!!

Damn~! This simply meant that I will have no control over when or the countless probability that I will juz DC without any warning! Is there something wrong with my Linksys USB wireless adapter or is this a usual freakin problem for wireless user?

CCB!!! I'm in need of help! Any help!?!?!

Some movie reviews

2005-09-01T18:37:00.001+08:00

千杯不醉 Review

A great movie!!! Valuable lessons are hidden behind this hilarious script. Great acting by Miriam Yeung and Daniel Wu. A simple and pleasant storyline filled with tacky lines.

Ratings
Visual 8/10
On-screen Action 9/10
Storyline 8/10
Flow 9.5/10

It's best to know nuts about the film before watching!

Another recommended movie for a good laugh: 雀圣 ("Ah Wang is back!")
Another "not bad" movie by Daniel Wu: 旺角黑夜 (A thriller starring Cecilia Cheung)

Enlistment draws nearer

2005-08-29T23:20:00.000+08:00

Latest on United

United maintained their unbeaten run by beating Newcastle 2-0 at St James Park. United adopted a patient style of play in the first half, stroking the ball around the defence and midfield. Newcastle had more of the possession in the opening play, but was unable to convert any of their chances.

United came out in the second half with all guns blazing. Terrorising the Newcastle defence right from the whistle. The breakthrough came in the 66 minute. Rooney capitalised on a defensive error by Boumsong and smashed the ball beyond Shay Given.

Soon after, Ronaldo sped through Newcastle's defence but was hauled to the ground by Carr. (According to rules, Carr was the last man and should be sent off) The "KELONG" referee waved away his appeal and did not even consult his linesman. Minutes later, RVN was through on goal and fell in the penalty box. KNN!!! Referee booked him for diving.

Newcastle was putting every men forward, edging for an equaliser. Luckily Ruud capitalised on another Boumsong error to make it 2-0 in the dying minutes!!!

Lucky United or what ever you call it... it's another cleansheet and more importantly, another 3 points in the bag!!! Bring on the derby clash! (Sianz, cannot watch Man Utd VS Man City~ Enlistment on that day)

Some thoughts

The days are drawing nearer to my enlistment date!!! Si bei sianz ar!!! Gonna miss Liverpool VS Man Utd on 18-09-05. (Confinement!!!)

Han, this is dedicated to you~
Life is confusing. But it ain't a bad thing. I take these confusing elements as dilemmas in life. How you handle these situations tend to mould your character. Different people see things differently, and the end results differ. It's a learning journey of life. Well, this is just my point of view.

Prince of Tennis The Movie

2005-08-28T18:41:00.000+08:00

My personal review for Prince of Tennis The Movie.

Ratings
Visual effects (Anime style): 8.5/10
Storyline: 6/10
Special effects: 7/10
Flow: 7/10
Overall: 7.5/10

The eagerly awaited virgin movie of the famous Prince of Tennis series. The scenes were set on an ocean liner. Ryoma and his Seigaku teamates boarded this particular Ocean liner and were challenged to an invitational match.

Little do they know that they will be treated as gambling chips in this so called tennis "gambling match". Kaido, Momoshiro, Inui, Eiji and Oji were captured and Ryoma was forced to lose the match on purpose. (What's the final outcome? Find out yourself!)

Ryoma's brother, Ryoga Echizen made his appearance in this movie. And true enough, the highlight of the show was the match between Ryoma and Ryoga. Flashbacks of their childhood (revolves around an orange).

However, the animators had really blew it this time, the special effects were simply too much of an exaggeration. Finishing their match on a sinking ocean liner, what's more the debut of underwater tennis LOLZ!!! Adequate animation spices up the movie but too much of it, it becomes just another way to lengthen the movie.

But still, this is a muz watch for all Prince of Tennis fans!!!

P.s. The review here is just my personal feedback. Judge the movie urself!

Tennis finally

2005-08-28T02:57:00.000+08:00

Met up with Han and Mao for some tennis session. Been months since we stepped onto the court. As usual, I'm still having a hard time grasping the correct technique. (Cannot blame, 没有运动细胞) Luckily managed to serve a couple of balls over lol. Played for less than an hour hour only. (Mao and I were late by 15 mins? I think)

After tennis, had laksa and desserts at 926 (The usual place). First, accompanied Mao and Han to get their PS2 games. Han left soon after while Mao and I went to collect my NS specs. (Still trying to adapt~) After that, went to Northpoint jalan jalan. Mao left after getting his Polo Tee.

Mao left, Chao came. Pei Chao to rot his time away while waiting for his friends. Chatted for awhile and headed for home.

Caught the first epi of 射雕英雄传 on channelU. Watched many different variations of this classic already. Well, this seems to be another good remake of the show. And ya... nice ending theme... lyrics simple but yet very meaningful.

《真情真美》——《射雕英雄传》片尾曲（词：赵麟　曲：陈彤　演唱：孙楠、许茹芸）

(男)真情真美，真如一池春水
风吹点点涟漪，感受细致入微
(女)痴心无罪，付出没有不对
算就一生一世，从此相依相随
(男)不必在乎是谁，翻转是是非非
把前尘做白纸，写上无怨无悔。
(女)我们都愿意给，只要爱的纯粹
就算有苦有累，我们一起去背

(男)爱是多么可贵，贵在有所作为
(女)爱是多么可贵，贵在有所作为
(男)只要同去同归，成败也无所谓
(女)只要同去同归，成败也无所谓。
(合)爱是多么可贵，贵在有所作为
只要同去同归，成败也无所谓
爱是多么可贵，贵在有所作为
只要同去同归，成败也无所谓。

(男)来日风雨中有没有伤悲，
无论怎么样一起来面对
百转千回，纵横南北
敞开我们的心扉

Great treats

2005-08-27T01:20:00.000+08:00

Woohoo! 拖我弟弟的福, I got to eat one of the best cake in my 20 years of life. (Not including the cake on my 19th birthday! That's the best!)

Visit this confectionery site!
http://www.emicakes.com.sg

OMG! It's really good! The taste is good, the packaging is nice, the overall feel is simply sensational! FYI, this confectionery actually had the audacity to call itself
Singapore's Number 1 Durian Cakes!!! It's a muz try!!!

Last but not least, let me wish my bro a Happy 19th Birthday!!! Oi Yong, 生日快乐!!!

2005-08-25T23:29:00.000+08:00

The results of the draw for the Champion League Group Stages is out!!! Manchester United has been drawn with Villarreal, Lille Métropole and Benfica. This draw will see DIEGO FORLAN against his old club Man United at Old Trafford.

Forlan has improved tremendously since departing from Old Trafford and has shared the Europe's Golden Boot with Theiry Henry. Let's just see how Forlan fares when he meets Rio in the rock of defence and new goalkeeper, Edwin Van Der Sar between the post.

However this season toughest group, I gather is Group G. Chelsea, Liverpool, Real Betis, Anderlecht. Star studded line-up from Chelsea, Liverpool and Real Betis will surely spice things up in this group. Don't count Anderlecht out, they might be the dark horse. Only the top two will advance. WHO WILL IT BE?

Group A	Group B	Group C	Group D
Bayern München (GER)	Arsenal (ENG)	Barcelona (ESP)	Manchester United (ENG)
Juventus (ITA)	AFC Ajax (NED)	Panathinaikos (GRE)	Villarreal (ESP)
Club Brugge KV (BEL)	AC Sparta Prague (CZE)	Werder Bremen (GER)	Lille Métropole (FRA)
SK Rapid Vienna (AUT)	FC Thun (SUI)	Udinese Calcio (ITA)	SL Benfica (POR)
Group E	Group F	Group G	Group H
AC Milan (ITA)	Real Madrid (ESP)	Liverpool (ENG)	Internazionale Milano (ITA)
PSV Eindhoven (NED)	Olympique Lyonnais (FRA)	Chelsea (ENG)	FC Porto (POR)
FC Schalke 04 (GER)	Olympiakos (GRE)	RSC Anderlecht (BEL)	Rangers (SCO)
Fenerbahçe SK (TUR)	Rosenborg BK (NOR)	Real Betis Balompié (ESP)	Artmedia Bratislava (SVK)

My prediction: Blue - Advance to second stage, Green - UEFA Cup place, Black - Better luck next time!

Nice site

2005-08-25T18:17:00.000+08:00

A great site to view MTVs, PVs. (JPOP, KPOP, English)
http://bestiz.net

Phobias

2005-08-24T17:41:00.000+08:00

Juz read an article about phobias in The Straits Times. Man, you'll be surprised at the things ppl fear lol.

What's a phobia?
A phobia is a persistent, excessive, unrealistic fear of an oject, person, animal, activity or situation. A type of anxiety disorder, it affects people from all walks of life.

In the article, it states that fear is a useful instinct, a way to prepare the person for "fight" or "flee". And in a phobic stance, it's a flee. To eradicate a phobia, one would have to develop a fight stance. Worst still, extreme phobias must be treated by a specialist, for fear that it might develop into a psychiatric illness.

In the article, it also says that a childhood phobia tend to be short term while adults phobias tend to last for many years and are less likely to go away on their own.

Haiz... wonder if my phobias are childhood or adult types? Hmm...

A list of common phobias

Ablutophobia- Fear of washing or bathing.
Achluophobia- Fear of darkness.
Aeroacrophobia- Fear of open high places.
Agliophobia- Fear of pain.
Agoraphobia- Fear of open spaces or of being in crowded, public places like markets. Fear of leaving a safe place.
Agrizoophobia- Fear of wild animals.
Agyrophobia- Fear of streets or crossing the street.
Altophobia- Fear of heights.
Amychophobia- Fear of scratches or being scratched.
Anthropophobia- Fear of people or society.
Anuptaphobia- Fear of staying single.
Aphenphosmphobia- Fear of being touched. (Haphephobia)
Arachnephobia or Arachnophobia- Fear of spiders.
Arithmophobia- Fear of numbers.
Asthenophobia- Fear of fainting or weakness.
Astraphobia or Astrapophobia- Fear of thunder and lightning.(Ceraunophobia, Keraunophobia)
Ataxophobia- Fear of disorder or untidiness.
Atelophobia- Fear of imperfection.
Athazagoraphobia- Fear of being forgotton or ignored or forgetting.
Atychiphobia- Fear of failure.
Autophobia- Fear of being alone or of oneself.
Aviophobia or Aviatophobia- Fear of flying.
Bathophobia- Fear of depth.
Batophobia- Fear of heights or being close to high buildings.
Caligynephobia- Fear of beautiful women. (Can you believe this? lol)
Chiraptophobia- Fear of being touched.
Claustrophobia- Fear of confined spaces.
Cyberphobia- Fear of computers or working on a computer.
Cyclophobia- Fear of bicycles.
Demonophobia or Daemonophobia- Fear of demons.
Didaskaleinophobia- Fear of going to school.
Ecophobia- Fear of home.
Entomophobia- Fear of insects.
Euphobia- Fear of hearing good news. (Haha, this kind of person exist?)
Felinophobia- Fear of cats. (Ailurophobia, Elurophobia, Galeophobia, Gatophobia)
Glossophobia- Fear of speaking in public or of trying to speak.
Hemophobia or Hemaphobia or Hematophobia- Fear of blood.
Herpetophobia- Fear of reptiles or creepy, crawly things.
Hydrophobia- Fear of water or of rabies.
Lachanophobia- Fear of vegetables.
Macrophobia- Fear of long waits.
Myrmecophobia- Fear of ants.
Mottephobia- Fear of moths.
Obesophobia- Fear of gaining weight.(Pocrescophobia)
Ophidiophobia- Fear of snakes. (Snakephobia)
Pneumatiphobia- Fear of spirits.
Pyrophobia- Fear of fire.
Social Phobia- Fear of being evaluated negatively in social situations.
Syngenesophobia- Fear of relatives.
Topophobia- Fear of certain places or situations, such as stage fright.
Trypanophobia- Fear of injections.
Zoophobia- Fear of animals.

Having seen the list, I can conclude that nobody can say that he/she has no phobias at all lol.

2005-08-23T01:09:00.000+08:00

18 days till enlistment.

My physical condition is definitely not satisfactory. I have stopped all training since don't know when. I'm a damn weakling now. Really damn weak! Is it really a disgrace for guys to feel so weak? Well, I don't think so. Am I not self conscious enuff? Well, that I might agree ba. Haiz... really no will to do any self training. I guess it all points to the word, LAZY. I'm feelin so lethargic even when I had more than enuff hours of sleep.

Maybe, I will do some serious training or most probably I will juz keep on procrastinating. But anyway, I'm gonna fully utilise the PTP (Physical Training Phase) to train myself back to full fitness.

It's gonna be mind over body for me!

Latest outing

2005-08-22T02:15:00.000+08:00

Saturday
Woken up from my slp by Mao's call. Met up with Mao, Han and Chao at Causeway Point for some pool session. KNN!!! Getting from bad to worse~ really sianz 1/2. After pool, we had a pretty long time deciding where to settle our dinner.

SEOUL Garden - Eat until sianz~
Sakae - No buffet lol
SOUP restaurant - Never tried before (Han's suggestion - He wants smething with soup)
Swensens - Only good for ice cream
Mc Donald - Also eat until sianz
LJS - Woodland's branch sux!!!
KFC - Too heaty (Han don't want)
Yoshinoya - Not filling enuff (Mao don't want)
Pasta Mania - Not filling enuff (I don't want)
MOS Burger - Simply not filling!
Thai restaurant - Mao don't want to eat rice lol
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We went back to Yishun's Crystal Jade La Mian Xiao Long Bao. 4 bowls of La Mian and 2 servings of xiao long bao. Before going in, we had to wait for about 15 mins at the counter area. There were some mooncakes for sample, and Mao actually finished up 50% of it LOL (Well, not exactly, should be around 40%) Me and Chao helped a bit too lol. Poor Han could only watch LMAO.

After the meal, I thought of getting myself a box of the mooncake. Made my order, and suddenly I remembered I do not have enuff cash with me. Sibei paiseh!!! They do not accept NETS. Luckily, the cashier had not keyed in. Left the place immediatley with the excuse of "I will buy next time".

Rushed to my house to catch the Man Utd VS Aston Villa match. Nice match as usual~ They left at the half time interval of the Liverpool VS Sunderland match.

Sunday
Met up with Han, Chao and NYY for a KTV session. Jialat, my selection of songs has decreased to I think only a few lol. Tsk tsk tsk... sang damn badly lol. After KTV, settled our late dinner at KFC. Pia (Rush) home for the Chelsea VS Arsenal match! I guess that's about all.

P.S Sometimes, I really wonder why ppl like to speculate on rumors. Typical Singaporean? I don't know~

Sports update

2005-08-22T01:38:00.000+08:00

Sports Update

Yeah!!! 6 points from 2 games, that's the real Manchester United!!! A timely tap in from Ruud Van Nistelrooy broke the deadlock in the 62 minute. Finally, Aston Villa's stubborn defence disintegrated courtesy of a Cristiano Ronaldo cross.

But after the goal, United seemed to have stepped off the gear as they presented Aston Villa with chances after chances. But, what's most important was that, the points are in the bag lol.

Another big match was played on Sunday. Chelsea takes on Arsenal at Stamford Bridge. Being a Man Utd fan, a draw would be my best result. But alas, Chelsea was able to win with a very lucky Drogba's SHIN goal (Drogba was controlling the ball, when the ball hits his shin and rolled past Arsenal's keeper) . Damned! Chelsea also has 6 points now.

Another latest news from Tennis, Roger Federer has beaten Andy Roddick in the final of the Western & Southern Financial Group Masters.

Another meaningful song~

2005-08-17T02:34:00.000+08:00

Say Anything - X Japan

Sawameki dake ga
Kokoro o sashite
Kikoenai mune no toiki
Toki o wasurete motome samayou
Takanaru omoi nurashite
Run away from reality
I've been crying in the dream

K?Ritsuita toki ni furuete
Yugande mieni kioku kasaneru
Kanashimi ga kieru made

* You say anything
Kizutsuke au kotoba demo
Say anything
Tachikirenai kokoro ni

You say anything
Just tell me all your sweet lies
Say anything
Enji kirenai kokoro ni

If i can't go back to where i have been
Yume no naka ni dake ikite
Owaranai ame ni nureru
Nagareru namida o
Hakujitsuyume ni somete

You say anything
Wathever you like to say to me
Say anything
You leave me out of my eyes
You say anything
All I can hear is voice from dream
Say anything
You can dry my every tear

Akari no kieta
On the stage
Hitori mitsumete
T?Ritsugita
Hibi ni dakareru
Kowashite kure nani mo ka mo
Kazatta ai mo
Toki no suna ni kieru made

Close your eyes and
I'll kill you in the rain
Kirei ni koroshi aeba
Z?Ka no bara ni umoreta
Shijin no namida wa
Kioku ni nagarasete

Time may change my life
But my heart remains the same to you
Time may change your heart
My love for you never changes

You say anything
Kitzutsuke au kotoba demo
Say anything
Tachikirenai kokoro ni

You say anything.....
Say anything.......
Now you've gone away
Where can I go from here?
Say anything....
Say anything......

I believed if time passes,everything turns into
Beauty
If the rain stop, tears clean the scars of memory
Away.
Everything starts wearing fresh colours.
Every sound beginds playing a heartful melody.
Jealousy embellishes a page of epic.
Desire is embraced in a dream

But my mind is still in chaos and......

A mixed update

2005-08-16T01:43:00.000+08:00

Update on some sporting news

Rafael Nadal won the Rogers Cup by beating ace veteran, Andre Agassi 6-3, 4-6, 6-2. This is Nadal first win in hard courts!!! Hope that this will be his first of many!

Man United started the season in winning style by beating Everton at Goodison Park. United won in convincing fashion with a 2-0 scoreline.

Ruud opened the scoring in the 43 minute against the run of play. Rooney doubled the number seconds after the break. Rooney's goal was courtesy of Everton defender, Yobo generosity. A stray ball by Yobo put Rooney in a one on one situation with the keeper, the rest is just history lol.

United new signings had a good run out too. Van Der Sar made some good saves and Park Ji Sung was active thru out the match. Things could only get better.

A great start to the season. Hope United can strive all the way and reclaim the title!!!

Watched the Korean drama, "Stairway to Heaven" on Channel U today. The tear gates are opened once again. Somehow, Korean dramas are able to play deep into the audience heart, twitching their emotions and making them "FEEL" the story.

Is it me or that most Korean dramas revolve around the rich and poor society, the contrast of their behaviours and ways of life. They always project the poor to be full of jealousy and are mostly the ones to play the devil.

As for the rich, they tried to cultivate an anti-snoobish kind of feelin. But in reality, is that really what's going on in Korea?!? Or are they projecting a fake image of the rich society there? Or rather, is this the trend of storyline there? lol.

And ya, the young actress in the drama really resembles BoA when she was younger. OMG, the face was almost the same!!! Simply unbelievable~

FYI, BoA has decided to change her image (formerly demure to the recent energetic style) and do away with her long hair. She's spotting a new hip hop kinda of style now. Now, that's what I call a gal with an attitude!!!

Old VS New

Funny Lines from SOOMPI

2005-08-14T18:25:00.000+08:00

I was browsing thru the SOOMPI forum and came across with these lines of laughter! LOL

''Passionate kiss, like spider's web, soon lead to undoing of fly.''
''Virginity like bubble. One prick, all gone!''
''Man who run behind car get exhausted''
''Man with hand in pocket feel cocky all day''
''Foolish man give wife grand piano. Wise man give wife upright organ.''
''Man who walk thru airport turnstile sideways going to Bangkok''
''Man with one chopstick go hungry.''
''Man who scratches ass should not bite fingernails.''
''Man who eat many prunes get good run for money.''
''Baseball is wrong. Man with four balls cannot walk!''
''Panties not best thing on earth, but next to it.''
''War doesn't determine who's right. War determines who's left.''
''Wife who put husband in doghouse soon find him in cathouse.''
''Man who sleep in cathouse by day, sleep in doghouse by night.''
''Man who fight with wife all day, get no piece at night!''
''Man who tell one too many light bulb jokes soon burn out!''
''It takes many nails to build crib, but one screw to fill it.''
''Man who drive like hell, bound to get there!''
''Man who sit on tack get point!''
''Man who stand on toilet is high on pot!''
''Man who lives in glass house should change in basement.''
''He who fishes in other man's well often catches crabs.''
''Man who farts in church sits in own pew.''
''Man who jumps from tall building, jumps to conclusion.''
''Crowded elevator smells different to midget."

Can't seem to comprehend some of them though.

United is one step closer to Champion League proper!!!

2005-08-11T01:47:00.000+08:00

The Red tide swept over Hungarian Champions, Debrecen by beating them 3-0 at Old Trafford. Triple R simply just demolished the Hungarian's defensive wall. Rooney opened the scoring in the 7th min. After the break, Ruud and Ronaldo finished the job, both with assists from Rooney.

Champion League proper have moved one step closer to the Reds!!!

Happy National Day

2005-08-10T15:47:00.000+08:00

Happy National Day to one and all. Singapore has just celebrated its 40th anniversary of nation building which ended in spectacular fashion, from the Padang, Heartlands (Yishun, Tampines, Jurong) and Marina South.

This year, instead of just watching the parade via live telecast, people from the Heartlands get to join in the celebration from three different location namely, Yishun, Tampines and Jurong.

Let's start from Monday.

Met up with Mao and kt, went to Sim Lim Square to look for some DIY packages. Actually wanted to have our lunch at Sakae Sushi, Bugis Junction, in the end just settled our hunger at the Sim Lim Square basement food court.

After lunch, we went up, level by level, searching for a good package for kt's new DIY desktop. Finally, we chanced upon a relatively good and affordable package at level 5. Pentium 4 3.0GHz, 1GB DDR2 RAM, 80GB HD, PCI ATI X300, Integrated Sound card, 6 USB 2.0, 802.11B/G ready. All this for just S$1098. A good package right.

After that, we made our way to the "Army Market" at Beach Road by foot. The routes we took are as shown on the map.

We took the Green route and walked to the "Army Market".

When we were walking past the Concourse building, kt suddenly remembered that he had left his file at Sim Lim Square Food Court.

Just when we were thinking of back trackking, a passerby over heard our conversation and kindly pointed to us a "short cut" to SIm Lim Square. Never give directions if you don't know how!!! We followed his directions and walked straight. (The purple route)

Luckily, our sense of direction never failed us. We made appropriate turns here and there.

Finally, we reached. Kt retrieved his file, we quenched our thirst and made our way back to the "Army Market" via the red route. (Trying to find a shorter route back)

In the end, the distance was about the same or even longer!

Reached "Army Market", kt got his stuff and we sat down at the Hawker Centre to quench our parched throat and rest our tired legs. We had a nice conversation about life in NS. One thing I have just noticed after so many years, kt really got exceptional observation skiils. Just that he doesn't say much or do much. He can be a fearsome enemy or a great ally. Luckily, we have an ally in him.

Phrases from Kt:
"We're all a bunch of pearls with layers of dirt hiding our real potential."
"To outshine others, we have to polish up ourselves, the more we polish up, the better we will become"
"But if we stop half way, the dirt will once again gather up and cover up what we have accomplished so far"

I'm really stunned man! This actually came from Kt! A usual man of few words could actually come up with such wonderful phrases.

"One thing for sure, ppl from YTSS NPCC unit are a class above the rest. No, not physically but mentally. We will have to thank our instructors for putting us thru all the shit. All the shit that moulded our mentality." said Kt.

Well, this remains to be seen. As I have yet to experience NS life first hand. Who knows what might be installed?

After the conversation, we made our way to City Hall MRT via the pink route. Kt went back to Yishun while Mao and I went to Marina Square to find Karen.

Well, the 30 mins estimation turned out to be 90 mins in actual fact. This might be due to our relatively long time spent on toilet hunting. Met up with her and the three of us settled our dinner at LJS, Marina Square. After that, we went to DXO, Esplanade.

We managed to gain entry to a supposedly "Invitation Only" music event featuring Wilber Pan Wei Bo. Well, the security only let us in near the ending. So by the time we went in, the event had already ended lol. But luckily, Karen got to have a glimpse of him. (or even more, a piece of him LOL)

Soon Yi Xiang came, along with Jie Ren and Jin Lu (I think). After awhile, Jie Ren and Jin Lu left. Me, Mao, Yi Xiang and Karen slacked outside DXO while waiting for the rest. At that point of time, Mao was feeling some discomfort. He was diagnosed to be having a fever by Yi Xiang. (Well, I couldn't feel any difference between his temperature and mine.) We were feeling thirsty and went to Mrs Field, Esplanade to get some drinks.

After that, we met up with Chao, Huiru and Nyy at City Link. We were planning what to do next. Our orignial plan was to join in the Countdown at Marina South. Instead, Mao, Yi Xiang and Huiru went back home while Chao, Nyy, Karen and I went to Chao's house for some mahjiong session. We left in two seperate cabs.

We reached Chao's house, set up the Mahjiong table and went on with our rounds of mahjiong. Man, I was feeling damn hot inside! (Maybe, that's why I can't feel the diff between Mao's temperature and mine.) I played thru the game, winning and losing. Strangely, as I played I felt better lol. After the game, we went to Mc Donalds, Admiralty for supper. I had to control, or else I might lose my voice the next day. Well, I have never failed to control my eating temptations. I practically ate nothing lol.

After supper, we made our way home. The time was around 0400 when I reached home.

The next day, National Day!!!

Woke up at around 1400, went out and met up with Han, Chao, Nyy and Huiru. Planning to go to Marina South NDP Carnivall. After much considerations, we decided to stay at Yishun as no tickets is needed for entrance. (Initially ,we thought that a ticket is needed for entrance.)

Accompanied Chao to have his haircut at 926. After that, we slacked around and Northpoint for awhile and headed for the NDP Carnival @ Yishun. Well, really "people mountain people sea" lol. Walked around and saw the exhibitions on display. Around 1800, we left for dinner at a nearby coffeeshop. Watching the live telecast of the parade, and enjoying our dinner.

After dinner, went back to the carnival. And joined in the celebration. The sky was growing darker every moment. Around 2000, fireworks started to lit up the sky in spectacular shapes and designs. The HIGH-point of the celebration was up next. The people from the Heartlands sang their hearts out, along with the people at the Padang. Everybody around me was so high!!! This made me to join in the euphoria, raise my hands up in the air and move according to the groove! The atmosphere was simply fantastic!!!

After the live telecast was over, the spot light was all on the stage. Overseas and local artiste were invited to perform and celebrate the Nation's birthday. First up, was a Malaysian singer (didn't get the name). A real crowd-puller. Up next, the whistles got louder when TWINS hit the stage!!! We got a great view from where we were standing. They belted out "Jian Xi Ai Shen" and a "Happy Birthday Song".

Next up, was the mobile column. A display of all the various vehicles from the Armed Forces and SCDF. Well, most of the audience were definitely feeling quite restless at that point of time. Especially teenagers. After the mobile column display, our very own local artiste, Tanya Chua made her appearance. However, the effect was less than satisfying. She was drowning herself in her own music. Simply put it, 自HIGH!!!

Finally, Nicholas Tse, the heart throbe from Hong Kong made his appearance. The audience (especially the gals) was going crazy. Jostling towards the barricade. He belted out two of his all time favourites. 因为爱所以爱 and 谢谢你的爱. In the middle of the second song, he went down the stage and interacted with the audience. Chaos!!! People were jostling towards the barricade at an even frantic manner!!! Nicholas Tse, on stage performance was simply exhilerating. He's a real crowd teaser! Two thumbs up for his performance.

Overall, the celebration was a great success. But after the performance, Singaporeans reared their ugly heads again, littering the whole field with empty drink cans, food wrappers etc. The whole field looks simply horrible!!! People just don't learn.. don't they.

After the event, we met up with Mei Fang and Wen Han to la kopi. Talked about alot of stuff... as we had our supper. Reached home only at around 0100, the event ended at 2200. Imagine this... we la kopi for about 3 hours lol.

Now to answer some queries, I adopted the name of Keith, reason being I liked it and thought that it sound pretty nice with my sir name. As to who thought of that name, the guy by the nick of K did lol.

As usual, I hope to post up some pics of the event ASAP.

My style, my blog

2005-08-06T17:32:00.000+08:00

Finally, after browsing thru tons of templates from tons of sites. I've decided to create my own template. A style I can truely call my own.

However, my color schemes still seems abit way off. I'm trying to create a modern yet not so bombastic kind of feeling here. I will appreciate any advice on color schemes.

Kindly do leave your comments on my chatterbox.

Thanks.

Last day of work

2005-07-31T17:40:00.000+08:00

Back track to last Friday.

A very happening last day of work. Caught late for work! Supposed to reached MOE at 0730, instead only reached there at 0800. 30 mins late!

What's worse? My supervisor SMSed me at 0745, asking me to check whether production is up? But, at that point of time, I was still stucked in the freakin slow moving traffic at Farrer Road. A direct evidence that I was late!!!

Reached MOE, met up with the new temp, Alex. Went through with all the security procedures and went up to the 16th floor. As Alex's name was still missing from the access list, only I'm allowed into the workroom.

Went in, checked that production is up and running normally and informed my supervisor. Proceeded with the usual tasks; like collecting the autosys batch report and checking for urgent MRs. Taught Alex on how to use the WS FTP program at the MR terminal near the MR team.

Seems that some critical jobs failed. I had to bother the MR team a few times and made numerous calls to my supervisor. After everything is settled, we could only slack outside the workroom.

After collecting the autosys error files from the server at 1000. We headed back to the office. Continued teaching Alex about how to do the daily batch monitoring report. Somehow, I really feel damn weird, teaching somebody older than me. Maybe, it because I'm not used to it.

Did my last production normal MR for the company and went for lunch with my colleagues. After lunch, Alex and I went back to MOE while the rest went back to the office.

Crap... Alex still couldn't access the workroom. Called up the ITB officer there to proceed with the approval. Taught Alex how to raise MRs, seems that he could grasp the concept pretty well. Soon, it was time to do the daily techupdate. Alex watched as I proceeded with the calculations. After explaining all the steps of the techupdate, we went through a trial run. Well, results wasn't quite satisfactory. On the second trial run, he did relativelybetter. And I decided that, this is it for the day.

Signed out of the workroom and we went seperate ways. Alex went home while I headed back to the office. Upon reaching the office, Daniel drilled me about the new temp performance. Seems like everybody in the team is so concerned with Alex's performance.

Told my supervisor about Alex's performance. Haiz... seems that his performance is below par. They have decided to change him. Maybe, it's the best for the company.

Really "zou bo" in the company. Just spend my time talking to my colleagues. Left the office at 2030. Daniel wanted to treat me and Hui Jie to dinner.

Daniel : Just tell me where you want to go
Me: Eh... don't know leh
Daniel : Just say la, anywhere also can
Me: Anything lor, me very sui bian de
Daniel : Hui Jie, u leh?
Hui Jie: Also anything lor
Me: Crystal Jade? lol
Daniel : Sure, no problem

So we decided on Crystal Jade, my mind is thinking about the Crystal Jade at Holland V. In the end, we boarded a cab and went to Taka. Upon reaching Taka, we went in search for a restaurant. It seems everywhere is so fully packed. Went up to the 3rd floor (I think), in search of an available restaurant.

Daniel : Crystal Jade got alot of branch leh, which one you want?
Me: Eh... the restaurant with frosted glass de lol
Daniel : Orh... the most expensive de right? You believe I kill you? lol
Me: Haha... zai leh

In the end, we settled for BREEKS. Me, Daniel and Yun Yun settled for Fish and Chips while Hui Jie ordered a Chicken Patties Melted. In addition we ordered a Buffalo Wings and Garlic Mashed Potato. Really don't understand the logic behind taking photos of the food. Gals theory, I presume. lol. Had a great time dinning with them.

One thing I would like to point out. The Buffalo Wings sux!!! Damn sucky. Never try it!!!

After dinner, we made our seperate ways back home.

Seriously, I really had a great time working in Accenture. Though it's only for a month, I have learnt much and made some good friends whom I could talk freely with.

七色彩虹

2005-07-25T21:55:00.000+08:00

Call me a 山龟 if you want, but this is the first time I have seen such a beautiful rainbow. Never before have I seen such a huge rainbow spanning approx across a few km. Simply stunning. A magnificent view from the 16th floor of MOE HQ Tower.

Two 山龟 stopping their work and gazing out of the window. Taking pic of the rainbow. We witness the whole formation of the rainbow. From a faint glow of light to a complete rainbow and in the to its disappearance into thin air.

Will post some pics of this incredible sighting soon... stay tuned.

As promised earlier...

Home Alone

2005-07-24T11:02:00.000+08:00

After much consideration, I have decided to pursue the course.

Backtrack - Friday
Late for work, supposed to reach MOE at 0730 but only woke up at 0745. Rushed down via cab. Luckily no batch job overrun. After sending the batch monitoring from autosys, nothing to do. Slacking time, until Huijie arrived. She takes over the laptop. She's doing some report generation testing. Details about it is confidential.

As usual, at around 1000. I will collect the autosys error files via FTP. The transferring itself, took about 30 mins. After that, I will hand the laptop back to Huijie again. Well, at least with 4 pair of eyes, we can scan thru the data more clearly.

Around 1130, we are already feeling damn hungry. For me, it was due to not having breakfast in the morning. For Huijie, she just had her breakfast at 1000 and she's hungry in less than 2 hours! Tsk tsk tsk, she eats almost the same amount as me, her digestion works faster than me and she's thinner than me. Such freakin high metabolism! Unbelievable~

Lunchtime, we met up with Yun Yun at Holland. I was by that time starving, and had 2 servings. After lunch, I went back to the company while Yun Yun and Huijie left for MOE. Reached the office, damn sianz again. After finish sending out emails of the daily batch report. Daniel, requested me to create some Crontab to run some server processes.

Had quite a bit of problem with the VI Editor, in the end, I resorted to using Notepad to type the commands and paste it into the telnet prog. After finshing my task, it was already about 1630. Time for me to go home.

Met up with Mark at Causeway Point. As usual, had great chatting session with him. But this "siao kia", ordered 2 large bowls of home-made noodles. After dinner, we were practically bloated. Walked around Causeway Point, ended up at the shoes section in Metro. Decided to get myself a new pair of leather shoes to replace the old and somewhat tattered one.

After that, we made our way home.

Saturday
Boring~~~ Facing the TV all day long. Pathetic~ Actually, planned to whip up a dinner with my bro. But, in the end shifted the idea and makedo with some left over lunch. After dinner, time to do some clean up. And then resume with TV shows again. Boring~~~

The ultimate programming language

2005-07-20T23:18:00.000+08:00

Suddenly had the urge to learn macros programming and Unix shell scripting. Seems quite useful and interesting. Finally, a programming language that interest me.

My supervisor wanted me to extend my stay in the company for another week. Should I go for the course or stay on at the company?

Accenture, is the company name.

2005-07-16T13:26:00.000+08:00

It has been 2 weeks at work. I'm beginning to adapt to this job. The timing, the scope and the pace of the job suits me perfectly. Moreoever, I'm gaining knowledge and experience at the same time. What stun me was, to find 2 course mates in the same company. What a coincidence!

More about the job. I have an overly-polite in charge and a bunch of knowledgable and friendly colleagues. Somehow, their dedication towards their task spurred me on. We are rotating between two shifts. One from 0730-1630, the other from 1000-1900. But mostly, OT has became a normality. Almost everyday, we have to work OT.

The 3 of us also have to travel between our office at GMTI building, commonwealth and the MOE HQ at Buona Vista. Actually, it kinda of good to have this arrangement. Instead of being couped up in the office, we get to mobilise our legs and thus have 15 mins of daily exercise.

In the MOE HQ, security was damn tight. We had to exchange for a visitor pass before gaining entry. Then upon reaching our level, we had to call the operator rm to open the door for us. Furthermore, we had to exchange for another pass which required verifications from our company. And tap the key card to enter the workroom.

And just like any other Government building, phone with camera is prohibited. And that's what made me switch to my Nokia 3330. Security is really freaking tight, making trips to the toilet and lunch a big hassle.

Due to security reasons, I had to sign the Official Secrets Act. I had a few shocking discovery there but I shall not divulge further.

London ATTACKED

2005-07-08T08:34:00.000+08:00

Now in the workroom with nothing to do. Seems that the system is temporarily unavailable. Now really damned bored.

London, the appointed host of Olympic 2012, was hit by consecutive bomb attacks. Seems like some terrorist attacks, but I think there's more than meet the eye. What a time to be attacked, just after a night of wild celebration, turnmoil engulf just out of nowhere. Turning London into a state of pandamonium. Who could be so cruel? Who could the real culprit be? Just hope that justice can be done asap.

London 2012

2005-07-07T08:39:00.000+08:00

Congrats to London on winning the bid to host the 2012 Olympics. This action have forced Paris to down the humble pie. In the build up to final vote, Paris delegates was deemed by many to be snobbish. In the end, the hot favourite lost.

Tired~

2005-07-05T11:17:00.000+08:00

Woke up at 0600 today, 30 mins later than usual. Slept at 0200, can you believe it? I only slept for around 4 hours. I'm so damn tired now. I'm so cold and sleepy.

Attire: Formal!!!

2005-07-04T12:58:00.000+08:00

Sianz... Just been informed that I have to wear formal to work. I have to follow the company dress code of long sleeves and black pants. This sucks man!

First day of work

2005-07-01T09:11:00.000+08:00

First day of work. Nice environment. Classy building from the outside, high tech facilities on the insde. As for the rest, we will see.

Check out the time of posting

2005-06-30T07:05:00.000+08:00

Yeah, I have proved that I'm able to sleep early and wake up early. Slept at around 2330 yesterday, woke up at 0630 today. Got to get use to this timing. Feeling a bit anxious about my job. Did some research on the company and found the company to be quite established. Wondering if I will be able to perform well there.

无业游民 no more!!!

2005-06-29T18:57:00.000+08:00

2 more days and I can declare I'm no longer a 无业游民. Finally, I have found a job. Hope to gain as much experience as possible before NS. But seems so strange, everytime I know that I've got a job. My body seems to protest by making me fall ill. Coincidence or by force lol. Just hope that, I could recover before Friday.

After thinking through for the past few days, I have came to a decision. I'm going to take up the opportunity and secure my future. To many, this offer might seem too good to be true. Only hope that I'm able to live up to expectations.

Decision making

2005-06-28T00:15:00.000+08:00

I had to make a decision soon. A decision that could change my future forever. After weighing up the pros and cons, I still couldn't make up my mind. Maybe, the implication that I forseen could be too much to handle.

A safe and secured future or should I aim toward my goals?

Family lessons

2005-06-27T01:18:00.000+08:00

Just had a very nice talk with my mum. Somehow, after every session, I tend to think back about all my actions. Am I right or am I wrong, or is there neither right nor wrong. Using past experiences and present examples, she will teach me life lessons and family values. Often, I would end up teary eyed.

Many times, I questioned myself about my up bringing. What have I turned out to be? Mostly, I will think about changes that I have to make, in order to make my life better. Now, I see a different side to my life. Things have never been better, I'm very fortunate compared to so many others. How can I ask for more?

I have finally learnt the importance of money. To be honest, I did not bothered about money matters at all. I have always thought that money is an external factor. From now on, I will think thrice before spending.

一个男人，不管你贫穷或富有，最重要是不要懒惰。只要做事有恒心，有一天一定会出人头地。
凡是要记得防人之心不可无，人是会跟着环境而改变的。朋友可以多交，知己要小心。

After hearing all that she said, I will reflect on all the things that I had done.

Initial D (The comedy version)

2005-06-26T02:30:00.000+08:00

Maybe, this show just wasn't suitable for a movie. I can say this, of all the racing movies that I watched, Initial D the movie really lacked the final punch. More of a comedy I should say.

Ok, there's simply no fault in the drifting stunts. Except that the storyline was scattered all over. In bits and pieces. I really hate to say this, but the movie only hit a 2.5/5 rating from me. Really disappointing~

The drastic character change of Bunta really brought the curtain down on the show. A respected legendary technician in the anime series turned out to be a drunkard in the movie.

Like what my brother said, if you really want to enjoy the movie, forget about the anime. The failure to do that, is what made me lost interest in the movie halfway through.

*This is just my personal comment, judge the movie yourself!

Batman Begins

2005-06-19T03:05:00.000+08:00

Actually was supposed to meet Bryan and gang at Suntec. But I slept well over meeting time. Woke up only at 1515. Damn! In the end, watched "Prince of Tennis" until 1915. This anime is simply fantastic. I'm addicted!

Met up with Han for some pool session at Causeway Point. Had a mini 9-ball competition with Han. Loser will have to pay 60% of the cost of the game. Winner only needs to pay 40%. I was in luck, lead him 3-0 from the start. Han fought back 3-3, then 3-4, 3-5, 3-6. Luck came to my side again, 4-6, 4-7, 5-7, 6-7, 6-8, 7-8. But in the end lost by 7-9. Blame it on my inferior skill and my "see-saw" lucky streak.

Chao and Nyy joined us soon after for a movie. "Batman Begins", nice movie, the story kicked right into place from the start. Great alternation between, his past and future, carefully planned. This movie tells people to not only conquer their fear, become their fear itself. (Sounds chim? Watch the movie!) 3.5 out of 5.

Took a cab home after the movie. Sembawang - Khatib - Yishun. (Normal MRT line should be Yishun then Khatib) Some baka wants to go Khatib first. But, not much difference; in the cab fare at least.

Quote from the movie: People don't see me as what I am beneath, they see me as what I do.

Great quote, don't you think. Why would people care about the real you? It's how you project yourself that counts. But this seems to debate my beliefs regarding the importance of the "real" you.

Strange~

2005-06-17T01:04:00.000+08:00

Activities for this week - "Prince of Tennis"and working out. Nursing myself back to fitness. Been slping earlier and earlier, frm 6 to 5, frm 5 to 3, frm 3 to 2.30. Great improvement, given my habit and prolonged nocturnal activites.

Strange though, these few days I've been having surge of great hunger. My appetite have never been better. And everyday, as soon as I wake up I'm feeling so weak, so lack of vigour and energy. But as soon as I ate, everything went back to normal. Strange, am I having insufficent amt of food? Maybe is due to a long period without any exercise.

One of these days, I'm gonna totally counter my fear of water. Mark, pls speed up your recovery. I'm waiting~

All down the drain~~~

2005-06-15T00:12:00.000+08:00

Family day, mum and dad took leave, bro need not attend school. Went to Fortunate restaurant for "dim sum". Long time since we gather together for a sumptuous meal.

Actually today is my parent's wedding anniversary, but after 20 yrs, this is my first year of celebrating it with them. And since Father's Day around the corner, we made it a combine celebration, one stone kill two bird.

After that I spent the whole day watching "Prince Of Tennis". Nice anime. Btw record broken today, since completing ITP, it's the first time I woke up for breakfast. My bio clock tuning plan is goin smoothly. However, due to long absence of training, my physical capabilities plunged. All the training in the past went down the drain just like that. I really need to train up before NS.

Hope I'm able to adhere by my training regime.

The gluttons strikes back!

2005-06-12T22:59:00.000+08:00

Joined Mao, Han and Chao for some pool session and dinner. Had our dinner at Seoul Garden, we just never learn our lesson. Taking more than what we can actually handle. Bloated in the end, but had a damn great dinner.

For BMT sake, I'm gonna tune my bio-clock back to normal. No more nocturnal activities.

Just in case you are wondering what is the song playing in the background. It's 一路向北, an OST from Jay's upcoming movie, Intital-D.

City Tour

2005-06-12T03:37:00.000+08:00

Went to "Army" market with Mao today. Via cab, the fare was shared 6-4. Mao was going to have his name tag sewed onto his uniform. After leaving his uniform with the Auntie, we left for lunch. Settled our damn late lunch at the Beach Road Hawker Centre which is just located directly below the "Army" market. Mao got his stuff done, and we pondered where to go next.

Decided to walk to Suntec City to find Fang (we assumed she was working there). Well, you can say we are among the most "log-cokly" dressed there. But who cares, as long as you are comfy. KNN, those leaflet distributers and promoters really look at your dressing before entertaining you. That's reality for you.

Walked past EBASE countless time, no sign of Fang. Mao and I eventually combed almost the whole Suntec City, not knowing where to stop. Damn, we were like exploring the place. "Mountain tortises" Finally, dinner time. Went to the Food Mall at the basement, it was so freakin crowded. Went to the Food Court upstairs, found a seat but we still left the place. I suggested that we try the Food Court at Marina Square. In the end, we ended up walking to Millenia Shopping Centre food court. Back tracked all the way.

The renovated Marina Square is really a maze in disguise. Luckily, our sense of direction never failed us. Found the Food Loft at last, a sea of people was crowding that large area. No seats were left vacant. Decided to go back to Yishun.

Went to Crystal Jade for dinner. After dinner, Mao came to my house (entertainment wise, Yishun really sux). Watched "Who Am I" on Ch8 while waiting for the rest of them. Ard 2340, we left the house and went to meet NYY, Ru and Chao at GV. Wenhan arrived soon after. Watched "Ghost Train".

On my way home, saw a few teenagers standing near the traffic light waiting for the light to turn green. What's strange is the road is simply clear of traffic. Only know how to act "guai" when a police patrol car is nearby. Police car on patrol only right. Hello, the road is clear, confirm no traffic within one kilometres. When I crossed the road, a few Malay guys still said "O O kena summon". Come on man, you need not act in front of the police. Furthermore the police will not "ga lan" whether you jay walked when the road is simply empty. And that's a sight you won't see everyday lol.

Lastly a quote from the movie, life is like a train. Final destination is death. The first car will reach, the last car will eventually reach there too. Let your imaginations run wild ba lol.

Ghost Train - scary movie? Nah~

2005-06-12T02:04:00.000+08:00

Just watched the Korean movie, Ghost Train. After so many Korean horror movies, anyone would just think that this is goin to scare the shit out of you. Think again! Those so called "horror stunts" are being performed one too many. The creative sparks indeed died down in this film. Except for the great lighting effects, the story line really lacked the ultimate punch. If the director was thinking of playing with the human mind, he failed miserably. Pieces of the story was lying everywhere. Sorry man, but this movie is only worth 1/5. However, the background music near the end of the show was worth a mention. Blended in superbly well.

Ghost Train? Or rather a train that signifies the decline of Korean Horror movies.

Alliance - The Gathering

2005-06-11T03:03:00.000+08:00

Been meeting up with the Alliance these few days. Lunch at S-11 (the one beside Cuppage), the former Western Food Stall at SP's FC4. The auntie recognized us and gave us 10% discount each. Reminiscing about our Poly life as we ate and talked.

Well, Roger is on course to becoming a future pilot in the Air Force. Wish him all the best man! And Mark wants to re-take his NAPFA test. Hmm... can I say "good luck" lol. Given his condition now, I don't think he can make it. (Further training will only aggreviate his injury) Zhe Heng will embark on his journey to Tekong today as I'm typing. Good luck to him too~. And Liang, went in on the day we met up, he's damn tough. Don't think he will need any luck. Paul and Kerwei had found jobs and had started to earn their income. Now only left 4 useless idiot always loafing around.

Chatted with Mark about life. Think about it, 2 years in NS. Armed only with a useless piece of Diploma that doesn't guarantee an income. Most probably, overseas studies or a local University. Think about the ceaseless flow of expenditures. 2 years down the road, we do not know what will happen, we can't forsee the future. Even if we do not fend for ourselves, what about our kins, our parents, our loved ones. It high time we take over their burden and let them enjoy their fruits of labour.

Time to start planning for the future. In the real business world, PR skills is very important (according to Mark, let me refresh your memory, on the bus to Harbour Front). I see PR skills as a skill to know how to make use of people to put yourselves at an advantage. And that really is cruel! I have experienced that first hand and I really have to hand it to those who have mastered this art of deceit, or rather the business style of deception.

Back to itinerary. Went to look up on some CDs at HMV Hereen. Tea break at Cineleisure Food Court. Screw the desserts. It totally sux!!! Went up to K-Pool to have a few games of pool. Damn, the combination of Mark and I was really crappy. Went home after that.

Next day, met up with them for lunch at Tiong Bahru. Sorry guys late for an hour, hope the ice-cream made up for it. Porridge buffet!!! $6 per person. Eat till you drop! Great lunch, never thought that porridge would be so filling. Intial D action up next, thanks for the treat again bro. Always been great racing with you. I still think you purposely let me win that "Ba Fang" match.

Went to Queenstown after that, pool playing again. This time round, Mark and I was able to mount a comeback from 2-0 down to winning 3-2. Well, I call that sheer luck and the power of "believe". After pool, Queenstown hawker centre for dinner. Talked about our past, remember the Annie Sung incident. The alliance "pon" lesson and went for pool session. The lecturer, Annie Sung called Ben's hp and this clever boy said "yah, we are all together" Hahaha. That was an unforgettable moment. Damn, I really like those days when we "pon" lessons as a class. The feeling was really damn song!!!

After dinner, I went to meet Mao, Han and Chao at Causeway. Pool playing again~ Actually, wanted to catch a movie but was so freakin tired after Supper at Mac. Chat for a few hours and left for home.

On the way home, joked with Han about rank and authority. Why should we respect the rank, respect is earned and not a routine. If the big shots want respect, they need to earn them. In war, who cares a damn about your rank. Still pondering about this query as I end this entry.

Unleashed

2005-06-08T01:02:00.000+08:00

Caught the movie, Unleashed yesterday. Jet Li starred as Danny, a human dog, a deadly fighter and a guy who had lost touch with the human world. He was all along in a state of "surpressed memory", until he met Sam and Victoria. Whom I deemed as his saviour. For more info, just catch the movie at a cinema near you.

Have you ever wonder what kind of life will it be; if you have no fear, no feelings, no knowledge. Just plain old innocence. Sometimes, simplicity is really the best things in life. No worries, no goals, no jealousy, no feelings. If given the opportunity, I will be so glad to terminate all memories, all knowledge, all my feelings and start from scratch all over again. Learn how to live a new life.

One who knows nothing about fear, live his life without worries. Fears are generated from young, we were taught what to fear. Don't do this, don't touch that, be careful it's hot, be careful it bites. Sounds familiar? These are what parents tell their kids, for their safety and that's where fear starts to build in them.

Seriously, it's the more knowledge you know, the more worries you tend to build. But then again knowledge does makes changes to the world. Isn't there any win win situation for this?

这些烦恼，又何苦呢？是环境改变人，还是人改变环境？

Nadal takes World Number 1 spot!!!

2005-06-06T00:59:00.000+08:00

Nadal won the Men Single in the Roland Garros. Beating Mariano Puerta 6-7, 6-3, 6-1, 7-5. Puerta tried to stage a comeback, but it was in vain as Rafael Nadal fought hard to his victory. He got the heart of a winner, will of a champion and attitude of a great sportsman. He's my idol!!!

Path of the undecisives

2005-06-05T02:09:00.000+08:00

Mao and Han accompanied me to ICA Building to get my new passport. Settled our lunch at Beach Road hawker centre and went for some pool session at Concourse shopping center.

To our delight, we were told by the counter that a 9-ball tournament had been arranged today. Had a great opportunity to see local players show their stuff. Pin point accuracy and nice placement of the cue ball was the main menu of the day. Witnessed some great play and skills.

I guess all that display influenced us to play a some 9-ball games ourselves. The ultimate thing about 9-ball is, it doesn't matter how many ball u pot, the number 9 ball is the decisive one. Han must be ruling at this stupid rule. Haha!!!

After the game, we walked back to Lavendar MRT, still undecisive about where to go next. And what do you know, 3 young adults took the wrong damn train lol. Supposed to take the train bound for Boon Lay, but our next stop turned out to be Kallang. WTF~ Haha!!!

Boarded the correct train, still unsure about our next destination. Saw a girl in the MRT, Mao came up with the idea of alighting where the girl alights. LMAO!!! Thought of going to City Link, but when we alighted at City Hall, -_-''' we found ourselves crossing the platform to take the North bound train. As there were alot of commuters at that point of time, we couldn't see where that girl was. After the crowd cleared at Dolby Ghaut MRT, we found that girl standing right infront of us at the door panel.

Coincidentally, that girl alighted at Orchard too. We were planning to go to Kino. Damn, we really looked like a bunch of stalkers. But one thing is clear, it was a mere coincidence that she alighted at Orchard too.

Reach Kino, Taka branch. Searched around for some books. Mao wandered around the fictional and sports section. Han was nowhere to be seen lol. While I indulged myself at the Astronomy section. Found a book about Einstein's relativity theory. The thoery of gravitational force got my attention. Has nobody ever tried to defy gravity??? Is it REALLY impossible to defy gravity???

After Mao got his book, we left for Cineleisure. Had our dinner at the food court. After our main course, a fucking incident happened. As the place was relatively crowded, and due to some miscommunication, we shared our tables with another 3 more guys. And what a fucking arrangement, Mao, Han and I were sitting directly opposite the 3 of them. Nevermind about that, the guy sitting directly in front of me really pissed me off with his attitude. This gone worse when Han actually told me that he said the seats were taken and the STRANGERS still made themselves comfy at our table. Unbelievable, and not a word of thanks.

After dinner, walked to Specialist Centre, John Little. After glancing at a few items, "Thank you shoppers, the store will close in 5 mins" HAHAHA. Made our way out and took the train back to Khatib, Yishun and Sembawang respectively.

Haiz, kena doubt of concern~

Nadal victorious!!!

2005-06-04T03:19:00.000+08:00

Who says the champ always win? Eat your heart out, World Number 1 Roger Federer lost to 19 years old spaniard, Rafael Nadal. Anything is possible if you have the heart of a fighter!!!

Roland Garros is just too great

2005-06-03T23:48:00.000+08:00

Finally completed my song organisation for my chinese songs. Watching the Roland Garros 2005 now. (Tennis French Open) Can't wait for the match between Rafael Nadal and Roger Federer. The winner will face Mariano Puerta in the Mens Final.

Thinking~

2005-06-01T01:36:00.000+08:00

The thoughts of early enlistment has long been floating in my mind. But recently, the urge has gone stronger.

Seriously, I'm sick and tired of doing nothing. Wasting my life away. I'm becoming more and more of a 败家子. But the contradicting thing is, I'm feeling damn lazy. Money kept flowing out but none flowing in.

NS isn't a bad idea afterall, free training, free food, free lodging and most of all financial-friendly.

Back to SP

2005-05-31T04:06:00.000+08:00

Never went to Sentosa afterall. A couple of my friends couldn't make it, and thus the outing was postponed. Joined Mao and Han for tennis instead.

It have been so long since I last chatted on MSN. Been damn busy organising my song collections. Found alot of songs with meaningful lyrics. For example, "The Rose", a song that artiste such as Ah Sang, Jolin Tsai and Lin Yi Lian had sang. The original singer is Bette Midler.

Accompanied Mao to CMPB yesterday for his photo-taking. And well, it seems they have lost his records. Is this what they called Government efficency? Or should I say plain negligence~

After the enquiry, we went to SP foodcourt 4 for a very late lunch. Not a very pleasant lunch by my standard. Slacked around in the school of ICT lvl 2 computer lab. Damn! My "M" drive has been deleted. All my projects are gone.

Met up with Han at Jurong East MRT station at around 1815. Surprisingly, we saw NYY, the "meecee" too. (Pronounce it aloud) Went back to Yishun together. Excluding Han, we alighted at Yishun MRT station. Accompanied Mao to get his comics and went for some drinks to quench our thirst.

Went home after Mao got his PS2 games.

Congrats to West Ham for being promoted to the Premiership.

Below is a song extracted from the movie, 风云- 雄霸天下

黑黑的天空低垂

亮亮的繁星相随

虫儿飞虫儿飞

你在思念谁
天上的星星流泪

地上的玫瑰枯萎

冷风吹冷风吹

只要有你陪
虫儿飞花儿睡

一双又一对才美

不怕天黑只怕心碎

不管累不累

也不管东南西北

6-2-2 or 8-1-1?

2005-05-28T03:05:00.000+08:00

Woke up at twelve and prepared to go to ICA building with Xiang and Mao. They came to my house and Xiang wanted to print his time-table, but my printer went a little hay wired and refuse to print the document. Therefore after watching the taped final episode of "Ah Wang", we left the house.

We pondered about our mode of transport. I was feeling kinda of lazy and thus suggested taking a cab there. And now here's where the 6-2-2 comes in. If the cab fare is around $10, I will pay $4 while Xiang and Mao will pay $3 each. But, if the cab fare is more than $10, then they will only have to foot $2 each while I'll handle the rest.

Walked to Northpoint and flagged a cab. (Main road is easier to get a cab and also shortens the travelling journey.) Upon boarding the cab, my eyes was glued to the fare meter. Kept on staring at the fare meter and at the same time looking at the Speedometer and Odometer. I was cursing any vehicle that cut our lane. But by the time we reached PIE and the meter showed $6.90, I knew it was game over.

Paid the fare of $11.80 and headed for Lvl 2, the Immigration Dept. Saw a long queue of people waiting to have their photograph taken, and immediately we left the building in search of a nearby photo studio.

In the end, we ended up settling our lunch at Beach Road Hawker Center. Introduced the Taipei Chicken Cutlet to them. After lunch, resumed our search and found a make shift photo studio at one of the boutique. (Digital camera, a camera stand that proved to be useless and photo printing machine that look like a telephone) $6 for 8 pieces of photographs.

Got my photo taken and went back to the ICA Building. After accomplishing our task, we went to Concourse building and played a few rounds of Billard. Damn suay!!! After potting the red ball, I attempted to pot the black ball. The black ball went in, but as the pink ball went in too during the shot. It became a foul. Thereafter, I started fouling on most of my attempt. Crap!!!

After the game, we went back to the Beach Road Hawker Center for our dinner. After dinner, walked to Lavendar MRT station. But just when we about to enter the station, Mao suddenly realise he had left his EZ-link at the Billard shop. No choice, have to walk all the way back to Concourse. On the way there, the idea of 8-1-1 popped up.

We are meeting Han and Chao at Causeway Point at 2030 and it was already 2010 by the time we reached Concourse. There's simply no way we are gonna make it on time, therefore we chose cab as our mode of transport again. 8-1-1, if the cab fare is more than or equal to $10, Mao only need to pay $8, me and Xiang will settle the balance. But in the end, Mao opted for 6-2-2.

Got his EZ-link card, left the building and boarded a cab. Too sleepy to keep an eye on the meter this time round. Took a short nap, and when I woke up, the fare was already double digit. When we reached Causeway Point, the meter stopped at $13.80. Xiang and I paid $2 each while Mao settled the balance. He should have chosen 8-1-1 instead.

Went up to K-Pool to find Han and Chao. I was very tired, too tired to play. Mao, Han and Chao enjoyed their game while me and Xiang just sat and watched. However, before they closed the table; I was itching for a game and challenged Mao. Surprisingly, I won.

Proceeded to Mac for some desserts, chatted and walked to Admiralty MRT station. Walking home from Causeway Point is starting to become a routine for us. But today, we opted to take the MRT from Admiralty station.

Meeting my poly clique for some beach fun at Sentosa tomorrow. But looking at the time now, I guess I'm gonna be late again~

The ultimate wish

2005-05-24T22:31:00.000+08:00

One will never dread a wish too many. One wish that can make all other wishes a reality. I wish I can just be that little bit braver in all aspects.

I shouldn't be afraid of this and that. My natural humjiness have to disappear. It's really hindering my life. I can never be who I want to be like that.

I can't play any outdoor ball games if I'm afraid of the ball! Just imagine, a guy running away from the ball instead of going to it. OMG, that's damn sissy! But no matter what, I just couldn't face the balls head on. Damn, I'm really in need of experts help.

I'm really afraid of too many things to be called a real man.

我想了很久，想起了很多事，原来是我的胆怯在阻挡我的前途。

Crushed...

2005-05-22T04:23:00.000+08:00

Seriously I'm feeling so crushed now, so empty, I felt the agony of defeat as a die hard Man United fan. We did so well and yet the results went the other way. Anything can happen but in the end only the final result counts.

Met Han and Mao for dinner at Northpoint newly renovated Food Court. Bought tidbits, drinks, nuts and Vodka, proceeded to my house and waited for the big match. Just imagine an Arsenal fan, Manchester United fan and a Liverpool fan enjoying time and watching the big match. How ironic isn't it?

But still, great match, great atmosphere, great company and that makes it a great day.

太残忍了，为什么会这样子？

Lady luck abandoned the Devils

2005-05-22T04:12:00.000+08:00

Sad day for all Man United fans. The lads dominated the game but lost cruelly to arch rivals Arsenal in a penalty shoot out. All credits to Jens Lehman, the Arsenal keeper single handedly won the FA cup for the Gunners.

Magnificent performance from the Devils, this ain't the end of things. The young lads have shown what a team performance from Man United can do. Next season, we'll see~

A childhood that never was

2005-05-18T01:15:00.000+08:00

Can't believe that I have just watched the Disney movie, Aladdin on Disney Channel. Furthermore, it's my first time. Makes me wonder, how did I really went through my childhood life.

I've missed alot. I really regret being so introvert during those days. If only time is reversible, I'll make the most of those days and not just going straight home after school. But well, that's the making of a "nerd" for you. Given the freedom but I chosed to abandon it.

If only I could have been more extrovert, I wouldn't be whinning now. I'm talking about changes to be more active, but it really seems a leopard will never change it spots. My upbringing is the result of what I am now. My character is the product of my childhood life.

I've always tried to appear better than what I am. Fact is, I actually minded about others opinion on me. But I dreaded myself to the core to be having this kind of traits. Am I deceiving myself or am I eluding from reality?

Maybe, it's time I face reality and be true to myself and others. But I really lacked self confidence now. Somehow, I feel it's at an all time low.

Deep in thoughts

2005-05-15T01:03:00.000+08:00

Saw someone at a certain place today, yet I just looked away. Feigning ignorance and stared into blank spaces. I thought that I had gotten over it totally, but it seems there still some left in it. Maybe it really needs time to forget.

Bolts of lightning flashed across the sky, menacing but seems to be a tell-tale sign. Bad omen perhaps?

如果真的忘了，我为何不敢面对你。

The revamp starts now

2005-05-12T22:26:00.000+08:00

It's time to start my life anew, a brand new me is born. Artificial hi-bye friends can get out of my life.

I guess I'm going into hibernating mood soon. I have been thinking alot of things through these past few days. I guess I'm going to be deemed as a failure all my life.

I have been a let down to many people, as well as myself. Simple expectations, and yet I couldn't even meet. I'm so disappointed with myself.

I always tell myself that I had to stand by my own principles no matter what. Somehow, I'm finding it a tougher chore than usual to even have my own stand. I used to be so determine in whatever I do, and now I'm so easily affected by external factors.

I need to find back my true self, only then will I be able to be true to others and myself.

Quote: One will never know how much something meant to him until he finally loses it.

Migration

2005-03-09T21:39:00.000+08:00

In the process of migrating to blogger~ Under construction as to now.